If anything, resuming a habit of leaving work at a healthier hour, and trying hard to stay away from it until the next day, has put my mind back into perspective. I’ve been thinking clearer and it has started to show in my work. It has also made me realize the most important thing about work: I really do like where I am. I enjoy the challenges, and I actually enjoy being put to the test on to it see if I can deliver. Even more so, I am enjoying the bigger test these days of delivering with a team of developers. Honestly, I don’t know how good of a team leader I am, but for the most part, I enjoy leading my team. It has its good days and its bad days, but there are no boring days.
If anything, I can remember praying about this job, and at the same time, I remembered God opening up every single pathway leading up to where I am today. I can honestly say that God has put me right where I am today. And this is where I want to be because that is where God put me. So what if things are not always roses. I’ll live! Even more so, I’m showing that I am growing in this job. I must be growing because I have been making decisions that I would have been really scared to make in the past. That’s gotta say something. I’ve been given to opportunity to put my, or are they, strategies into play and I can see the results. I’m actually at a point where I am doing what I can to make our department look better. Of course, it’s not me alone, but I know that I am not alone, and we all work together to make our environment a great place to work. It takes a lot of work, but what good thing doesn’t?
At this point, I do not want to just drop everything and go someplace else. Just because things are very hard and the pressure is on, I’m not going to back down from the challenge. I was put there for a reason and even if that reason is to fail, it will all be a testament to God’s glory. Perhaps, I have to realize that this is not about me anymore. I may be a team leader, but I am now serving a team. I want them to succeed. Perhaps, that is why God put me there.